Friday, February 13, 2009
Life hasn't been exactly fun for me for the recent weeks. I've met with failures, tried to overcome it and still failed. I've to admit that having a sense of time urgency is not in my blood. No matter how determined and I tried to overcome it (and amazingly I did pretty well for a week) but I'm still back at zero.
I woke up a little earlier this morning to get ready for class. I've no idea how I can be late while looking at the clock every 2-3 minutes. I feel stupid for making a fuss out of my pimples and take a long time trying to cover it with concealor. I've been late this whole week. It's like five jackpots in a row. Today's the day I hit the big jackpot - I skipped class and a quiz. It was horrible. I tried to flag for a cab but couldn't find any. I took cab yesterday and was late for 15 mins. I seriously can become broke just because of this stupid habit I can't seem to break.
Anyway, I got really depressed this morning. I've been experiencing so much failures in my life. There are times when I hate myself for being unable to do what others are able to do. My studies aren't doing well either. But I guess everybody has their own weakness. I thank God for letting me come to this low point in my life. I feel hopeless, tired, drained out, weak and I have absolutely no more energy to try to overcome my problems. It's really no fun yet I know that this is the best time because when I'm feeling hopeless, it's the time when God will show Himself strong.
"And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." - 2 Corinthians 12:7-10
Because of your grace, I know I have what I need to overcome this problem. Since I've come to the end of myself -tag- it's time to rely on You to step up and help me pull through (:
Love me @ 12:42 PM
