Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I'm the kind of person who likes to plan my future. Don't really like to step on unknown grounds. It makes me feel insecure and lost. There're always alternative paths that I lay for myself just in case one fails. I think I've planned my future up till the age of around 30+ or maybe 40s. But recently, I've been thinking. . what kind of life do I want to live when I reach the age of 40 or when I grow old and (may God forbid) ugly? What about life at 60s, 70s or even 80s? I have to admit I don't really think about marriage life or having a family. I think I'm more career-minded in some sense. But thinking about spending life alone for the rest of my life seems bearable only till the age of 40. Maybe it's time for me to rethink about life. . hm. . And I'm reaching the age of 23 soon. I think I'm beginning to embrace aging. It's not something I can control anyway. What I can do is to change myself for the better. It's kind of sad if I'm the same at the age of 23 and 18. Probably becoming more independent? Truthfully, I'm not really sure if becoming more independent is a good thing. Being independent is good, like being able to handle things on your own. But being independent from family isn't good. Hm. . more things for me to think through about life. . Hope I'll get some englightenment soon (: No matter what, life is still good and amazing.
Love me @ 1:32 PM
